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Published On: 11-18-2006 08:44 PM
Blog Category: No Category Blog Tags: No Tags There are days, I wonder how it is, that others see me in this world... Sometimes to the point of Paranoia, in fact. Which is exactly why it is, I keep myself to myself on most occasions. No one likes being seen for what they're not. Unfortunatly, it's something we all do... Most of the time, on levels so subtle, we don't know we are doing it. We assume things, placing people in to steriotypical groups, and make judgements,.. Alot of the time, without realizing it. That is a mistake, but one easilly made... And forgivable...
It's the other situations... When people go out of the way, to assume what kind of person I am, what I stand for, or place me in a particular group, for what ever reason. This happens alot in my life, and has sence the beginning... For what ever reason, I'm missjudged, or missunderstood a great deal. It is an agravation, I have yet to rid myself of... I know who I am...What I'm about. Am I unusual? Yeah... Am I a bad person? No,.. Only to those who get me angry,.. And that's not easy to do. Although, I'm sure some people think otherwise, I'm mostly harmless...Unless prevoked. And finally, for what ever reason, I have a tendency of getting caught up, in weird situations... Again, this has always been the case. 0 Comments
Published On: 11-17-2006 08:14 PM
Blog Category: No Category Blog Tags: No Tags The opening shots were fired this morning, bright and early...The conversation got really ugly, really quickly. Expearience allowed me a measured response, to the relentless hammerings and insulting remarks... I understand where the argument came from, yet there are times, a magic answer can not be found. I'm sorry if I do not measure up, to the idealistic, unrealistic expectations of others. It's times like this, I believe they should look more at themselves,.. And figure out exactly why and what it is they want of me. Are the rude comments, out of real concern, or reasons of self... After all, I HAVE done all that I can... For many years now. Some of these facts go forgotten in battle, it seems... 0 Comments
Published On: 11-15-2006 08:42 PM
Blog Category: No Category Blog Tags: No Tags ...I really hate it, when everything is so touchy...When you can't even have a conversation, without something setting you off. Even with friends... But, it's not the world, it's not them... It's no fault of theirs. The fault is mine to own. For those people,.. I AM... very and truely sorry.
It's an odd sensation,.. Things that normally wouldn't bother me, are magnified ten-fold. I know why it is, that this is happening... And I know that I'm still... Me. Same views, standards and character... Only now, super sensitized... I DON'T like it... Bad things, come from over sensitivity... All our negative emotions. Anger, jealousy, guilt and insecurity. Everything I don't stand for. I dislike these emotions in others, why should I be this way, myself? Simple answer, everyting going on around me... But is it only a excuse? For something more, going on?
I'm way over defensive now... So unlike me, to be this way... It shames me. I'm not insecure in myself,.. I like who I am... But, on the other hand. I'm not at all happy,with what it is, I need to do... Even things that are for the best, are often the hardest to accomplish. So, I continue on... Dispite this odd sensation,.. Trying to cause, as little colateral damage, as I can... Forgive me, all. 0 Comments
Published On: 11-14-2006 09:48 PM
Blog Category: No Category Blog Tags: No Tags So...With things now underway... A schedual has formed. By the end of December, the place I live in, this place that has been home, for countless years,..Will be left behind. It's too expensive to live. And I can't do everything. The world, in fact... Has become darker, and seemes to be chewing up people, and spitting them out, on a larger scale, with each passing day.
Now, I push people back, send them away,.. Mostly, for their own good. There will be ugliness... Of that, I have no doubt. I will be the target of attack, from many directions... I always am. This time, I will be ready...Which is why I push those I care about away...To keep them clear of the line of fire. I now reconform, and reconfigure... Back to my old ways. Back to the cold, dark and angry person I was before. I need to do this, ..It's how, to survive... There are those, who will argue my decissions, and my directions...Those people will meet with the old me. The dark warrior. 0 Comments
Published On: 11-13-2006 07:12 PM
Blog Category: No Category Blog Tags: No Tags ...And,...It has begun. 0 Comments
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